I Can’t Dance But I Do Anyway

I went to Zumba class tonight. I hadn’t been to my Wednesday night class in a few weeks, so I was GETTIN. IT. I was rocking my sweet, sweet dance moves, and you would have thought that I was the next contestant on America’s Got Talent. 

It was in the middle of the class while watching myself in the mirror that I had an epiphany. Here’ it is: I will never dance well. Six months ago, when I started working out consistently, I knew good & well I couldn’t dance well. However, I thought that over time, after I got into shape and lost weight, that somehow my dance skills would improve. I was completely and utterly wrong. Here I am six months and 39 less pounds later, and I am still just as horrible at dancing as I was to begin with.



So yeah. I can’t dance. I will never be able to dance. It’s a hard truth of life that I finally came to terms with about 6:30 tonight. However, despite my complete inability to dance well, I’m not going to stop. I love Zumba, I love dancing in my car, and I love dancing while mowing my lawn.

After all, as a philosopher of our time once said (Don’t ask me who, I found it on google images): “Why be moody when you can shake your booty?”

Keep dancing, people. I know I’m going to.


Long Time No Blog

So here we are in July, making it over a full month since I blogged. I did some looking, and June 2017 is actually the only month since having my blog that I haven’t written. That’s life…sometimes you blog, and sometimes you don’t.

Now, as my fingers are furiously typing, it feels like it does when you get back on a bike…you never really forgot how to do it, but you forgot how exciting it was to get back to it. Here’s my last month.

  • Roommate! Over Memorial Day Weekend, my friend Savanah moved her stuff into my house, because she’s going to be my new roomie! She’s going to Washburn University for nursing in August, and I had a spare bedroom, so it fit. We’ve known each other for years, and I can’t wait to grow our friendship even more 🙂


  • Binging. I have a weakness for TV. While I haven’t read hardly anything in about two months, I have watched three seasons of Younger (Team Josh), and I’m almost a full season through Smallville. I can’t help it.
  • Work. Summer is a major busy time of year for me at work. Late June brought Country Stampede, a three day music festival in Manhattan that I work at (I was actually there for five days). Mid-July brings another five day event that I coordinate our presence at. Mid-August it slows down a little bit.
  • Dad’s Retirement. My dad retired from 30 years of teaching & coaching, and we celebrated in style. Mom, Chance, & I spent a few months planning a party and his major surprise. We surprised him with Chiefs season tickets, parking, & everything he could ever need for tailgating. The party was the best, and it was such a good afternoon to celebrate the best man I know.
  • Running & more weight loss. Due to the aforementioned Country Stampede and retirement party, my weight journey has been more one of weight maintenance than weight loss. I’m down to 207 which is only two pounds less than the last time I blogged and still seven away from first goal weight, but honestly, I’m okay with that. I was able to maintain my weight over that three week period of not paying attention to my calories, so I’m just glad I didn’t gain any weight. My 5K training is going really well, and I’ve posted from our station website a little bit of that. Here’s some posts about staying motivated, my favorite fitness apps, done in 60 seconds, & my running playlist.

So there you go. That’s what I’ve done over the last month of not blogging. It’s been a busy month, but a fun one. I’ve missed that familiar feeling of writing, though, so it’ll be my goal not to wait another month to blog again.


John 3:30

“He must become greater, I must become less.” 

In church this morning, this verse was referenced.  As we continued through the service, I kept looking back at it, and circled it a few times. For some reason, I was drawn to this common verse that is quite often used.

For me, this means that to be authentic in pursuit of a relationship with Christ, that He must become greater. It truly is as simple as it is written. Is it easy to live this out? Not always. That’s what was running through my head as I circled the verse. Have I been becoming less so He can become greater? It was a tough one to gnaw on.

While an answer to that question hasn’t popped into my head with alarming clarity, something else did. I thought of situations, or rather, relationships in my life. Relationships of all kinds…family, friendship, acquaintanceship, work relationships, dating. The best ones stood out to me, and when I got to thinking why, it was because I realized that in those relationships, I wanted to become less. I wanted to put those other people first, and as a result, the best ones that I’ve had over the years are the ones that are strongest in my life now.

I’m not by any means saying I’m the perfect friend – if I’m certain of anything, it’s that I am a work in progress. But today, as I was thinking of those imperfections worried that I didn’t have the tools to be authentic in my pursuit of a relationship with God, I realized that God already gave me all the tools I needed, before I even knew I needed them.

“He must become greater, I must become less.” When put into perspective, making God greater makes life one that seeks Him, walks with Him, and lives for Him. And that life…a “Less” life…is the one that God already showed me fills my life with meaning.


Second weigh in of the second weight loss challenge today. The scale read 212. That marks 30 pounds.

Thirty wasn’t the number goal (that’s 42). 212 wasn’t the weight goal either (that’s 200). But it’s 30. Pounds. And I don’t mean to brag (well maybe I do), but that’s an accomplishment that I’m incredibly proud of myself for. I lost two pounds this week. I haven’t had a weigh in like that in weeks.

It can get discouraging, especially when I lost 21 in ten weeks and then it’s taken me seven to lose the next 9. It’s frustrating at times, but then times like this morning happened…and it makes it worth it.

On another front, I started my 5K training today. I’m following this guide. Today was just a stretching workout, but it was more of a workout than I thought it would be. Tomorrow starts the first running interval, so we’ll see. Here’s my first post about it I wrote…I work for a great group of people that enables me to combine activities I like to do with my job. And I love it.

I’ve got 12 to go, and I won’t stop til I get there.

Challenge Cubed

A few things…

1) I have 11 draft blog posts. I didn’t want to edit or expand on ANY of them, so here I am. 2) I wanted to write this in my backyard, with my party lights on and my “Blogging Day” coffee cup filled with Gatorade. But then I opened my fridge and remembered I needed to cook the chicken and steak in there…so I here I am..
3) And finally…I am in the third day of my weight loss challenge, and I already messed up and ate a ton of french fries at Red Robin today. Two hours of working out later and here I am.

Challenge cubed. It’s a challenge within a challenge within a challenge (that’s cubed right?). As I mentioned, I’m in the middle of my second eight week weight loss challenge. I won the first one (more on that here, and here, and here), and I’ve lost 7 pounds in between the end of the last one and start weight for this one. This challenge ends July 3 and the goal for that challenge is to lose however many pounds I can by then. I have 14 pounds to lose until goal weight, and that brings me to my next challenge (challenge squared)!

Challenge 2 is to get to goal weight by Country Stampede, a major three day country music festival I go to for work. That’s 14 pounds in 6 1/2 weeks, so we’ll see. It’s about two pounds more than is recommended to lose by that time, but I can do it! I hope. We’ll see. I gotta get my sh** together better than tonight (I’m eating Hershey’s as I’m typing this) for that to happen.  If it doesn’t happen, then obviously that would be the goal by the end of the 8 week challenge.

Challenge 3 (cubed!) is to train for a 5K based on THIS. The fun part about it that also will help keep me motivated is that I get to tie this into my job! It will start on Monday and runs for eight weeks so will be over a week after the weight loss challenge. I’m not much looking forward to the running in the heat, but I am looking forward to videoing parts of the challenge for work, tying in other coworkers, and getting to write more for my job.

That’s it! More than likely, the blog posts I write for my work websites will also end up here, so I’ll keep you posted! I am excited, nervous, but mostly re-motivated to get myself finally to that goal weight…and then onto the next one


A to Z Book Tag

Yaaay tag posts! This one was kind of fun on youtube, so I just decided to do it 🙂

A – Author I’ve Read the Most Of
Julia Quinn

B – Best Sequel Ever
The Golden Lily, Bloodlines Series

C – Currently Reading
Two by Two, Nicholas Sparks

D – Drink of Choice While Reading
Iced mocha coffee on a weekend morning in my reading room. 

E – Ereader or Physical Book?
Physical Book

F – Fictional Character would have Dated in High School
Harry Potter ❤

G – Glad You Gave this Book a Chance
The Hunger Games series 

H – Hidden Gem Book
A Little Something Different, Sandy Hall 

I – Important Reading Moment in Your Life
Collecting full sets of my authors and vowing to have their entire sets (Nicholas Sparks, John Green, & Julia Quinn) 

J – Just Finished
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows 

K – Kinds of Books you won’t Read

L – Longest Book You’ve Ever Read
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix

M – Major Book Hangover
Gone Girl, Gillian Flynn

N – Number of Bookcases you Own
Three plus two small built-ins 

O – One Book you’ve Read Multiple Times
All We Know of Heaven, Jacquelyn Mitchard

P – Preferred Place to Read
My reading room! 

Q – Quote that inspires you or gives you all the feels

R – Reading Regret
Fifty Shades of Grey series

S – Series that You’ve Started & Need to Finish
Bright Young Things, Anna Godbersen

T – Three of Your All-Time Favorite Books
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, JK Rowling
All We Know of Heaven, Jacquelyn Mitchard
Can You Keep a Secret?, Sophie Kinsella

U – Unapologetic Fan Girl For
Nicholas Sparks books

V – Very excited for this Release
Honestly, I don’t have a lot of books that I’m “waiting for” right now. I’m just trying to get through all the ones I already own! But if I had to say something, I would say the final installment to The Land of Stories series by Chris Colfer. 

W – Worst Bookish Habit
Not reading enough nonfiction.

X – X Marks the Spot: Pick the 27th Book on Your Shelf
Princess of Glass, Jessica Day George

Y – Your Latest Book Purchase
The Magnolia Story, Chip & Joanna Gaines

Z – Zzzzzzz. Book that Made you Fall Asleep.
The Grapes of Wrath, John Steinbeck 

Batman & Jesus

This morning, I was up early…we’re talking way early, about 5:45 AM. Not my favorite thing in the world to do, but it was for a good reason. Church!  I got up, and I kid you not, before I even went to the bathroom, I went to my kitchen and poured some coffee into my biggest coffee cup, my Batman one!

As I was getting ready, I naturally checked twitter, and tweeted this one out:


Yes, you read that right. I compared Batman to Jesus. Honestly, I tweeted it because I thought it was funny, I was tired, and it popped into my head as I was drinking out of my Batman cup. I’ve thought about it over and over today because of quite a few reasons.

Part of my journey with my faith is that constant worry about what others think about it. Do they think I’m a “good enough” Christian? Is it okay that I don’t ready my Bible very often and only have one? Is it okay that sometimes my only source of worship for the day, week, sometimes month is listening to K-Love in my car? These thoughts don’t come into my mind that much, because my church and friends I’ve met through there are the most welcoming and accepting people I’ve ever met, but sometimes they creep in. So you can see why these questions may have popped into my head since I compared our risen Saviour to a comic book character.

But THEN! I thought some more, and really….what I said wasn’t totally off base. Not when you think about it. Batman and Jesus do have similarities. Both were a source of hope when things were tough. Both had many followers and enemies alike. Both still have fierce, loyal, and faithful believers that gather together to celebrate their legacy.  As I mentioned in my tweet, both rose from the dead. So my tweet that was meant to be lighthearted and funny ended up being more true than I thought.

I know that one strikingly obvious difference between Batman & Jesus is that Batman is fictional and Jesus isn’t. But what I found out as I was going through the question of “Should I have tweeted that?” all day long is that it’s okay to draw similarities between nonfictional and fictional characters, especially if that’s what will grow someone’s relationship with God. For me, the most honest way to be a Christian is to be authentic and genuine in your faith through who you are. My favorite verse that’s on the sidebar of my blog emphasizes this:

“Don’t let anyone think less of you because you are young. Be an example to all believers in what you say, in the way you live, in your love, your faith, and your purity.” –1 Timothy 4:12

My name is Torey Nicole Berndt. I’m 26 years old, have iced mocha coffee for breakfast every morning, and my favorite superhero is Batman. I’m also a Christian. And while my faith walk is a consistent journey that changes from day to day, I do know three things. I’m always going to need coffee at 5:45 AM, I’m always going to love Batman & Jesus, and I’m always going to keep it real.