So…I’ve had some setbacks lately. And most of them are because of my inability to stay motivated or stick to my diet. It’s October…and I LOVE CANDY. The fall has always been about soups, pumpkin baked goods, candy, comfort food, and definitely NOT about the green peppers that I have to crunch, crunch, crunch all the time. Last Wednesday, I put myself on a “NO SWEETS” moratorium until my birthday party. Then I ate two and a half small bundt cakes on Friday, one bite of a cookie Saturday, one bite of a cookie yesterday, and some muffin batter tonight. So I guess it starts again tomorrow?

So, anyway, I’ve been pitying myself as if I don’t have control when in reality I’m the only one who can take control. And motivation has been exceptionally hard lately. I’ve had two two pound weigh-ins in a month, I have the worst sweet tooth, and I just…it’s just been hard.

Lo and behold came this weekend! And it was a hell of a weekend. On Saturday, my goal was to run five miles. When I run five, I route six so that I can walk the last mile as recovery. Well, while on my run, I hit five, and decided that six wasn’t too bad. So breakthrough #1…my first unofficial 10K.


This was absolutely incredible for me to be able to do. I never thought I’d be able to do it, and I didn’t die. Now I will say after Saturday’s run and this morning’s 3.1 run, I am a little sore, but that doesn’t downplay what I was able to do. AND I think I might want to run one – for real!

I have not been great with progress pictures during my weight loss journey. But Saturday night gave me an opportunity to have one. I went to my brother’s Halloween party, and out of curiosity, I brought up my Halloween picture from last year, and put the two side by side. I’ll let the picture speak for itself.

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Breakthrough #2? Being able to see what other people have told me they see…and letting myself be proud of it.

This morning I had my weigh in…and that was breakthrough #3. I hit my lowest weight yet, and officially at 58 pounds lost – and on my “weight thermometer,” I finally got to go into my next color!

I needed all of these this weekend. Motivation is hard, people. It truly is. Sometimes you have it, sometimes you don’t, and sometimes you let your head get in the way of what’s happened. But then, a few things come your way that remind you it’s the small victories that matter, and give you exactly what you need to push through.



I Love

I’m tired of writing nothing but life update posts. When you don’t blog much because of your crazy busy life, the last thing you want to do is continue to talk about that crazy, busy life…so if you wanted to know what’s going on in my life, tough.

For some reason, I’ve been taking extra time lately to really pay attention to what I love and the small things that make me happy. And you get to learn what a lot of them are because that’s what I feel like writing about.

I love…

…Papermate colored pens.
…leggings. Good lord, I never thought I’d say this, but they are LIFE.
…peanut butter with honey. I go through a jar a week, folks. It’s the healthy person’s junk food.
…Thursday nights, purely for Grey’s Anatomy and Scandal.
Snoozie slippers.
…plush blankets. I have over 20, and that doesn’t even count my holiday specific ones.
…the feeling after a run. People, go on a run. I can’t even explain the high you’ll feel after one.
…reading in my reading room in the fall with my windows and doors open.
…Sparkling Ices. This provides me the part I miss the most about soda (the bubbles!).
…Google calendar. I would die without the color coding simplicity of using this.
…the ease of checking my fitbit for the time when I wake up in the middle of the night.
…similarly, my ability to sleep like a rock. I’m so thankful that I sleep well.
…Chobani flips yogurts. LIFE. CHANGING.
…my Kicker wireless headphones.
…being moved to tears from a song or a message heard in church.
…Mary Kay cream eyeshadow.
…decorating a home.
…baby laughter.

There you go! Some of my loves. ❤

2017 TV Lineup

It’s premiere week! I LOVE premiere week!!! It’s one of my favorite weeks of the year. I write this post every year (check out last year’s lineup here), and let me tell you, this year is vastly different! I have only nine shows this year compared to last year’s 15, and only have three new shows (two of which I don’t even know if I’ll watch more than the first episode). Heeeeere we go!

Couple notes on a few of the shows –

  • The Good Doctor and Dynasty:  I have no idea if I’m going to watch either one of these past the first episode. I don’t think Doctor will go far, and Dynasty’s definitely going to be cancelled, but might be a good guilty pleasure while it lasts.
  • GREY’S ANATOMY I CANNOT WAIT. Talk about a guilty pleasure. God I love this show – two hour season premiere in three days! ❤
  • Pretty pumped for The Resident, premiering midseason. Hello Logan from Gilmore Girls!
  • If Casey dies in Chicago Fire, I swear my heart will break and I will cry a lot.
  • Once Upon a Time, PLEASE be good with all new cast members.
  • The Bachelor is coming midseason. Yes. Yes yes yes.


The Good Doctor, ABC (New)


This is Us, NBC


Chicago PD, NBC

Dynasty, The CW (New)


Chicago Fire, NBC

Will & Grace, NBC (New)

Grey’s Anatomy, ABC

Scandal, ABC


Once Upon a Time, ABC


The Resident, FOX (New)

The Bachelor, ABC

The Shorts

I was a three sport athlete in high school. I played volleyball, basketball, & track, then played basketball in the summers.  While I wasn’t great at any of these sports (I suppose I was decent at basketball), I am a coach’s daughter & lived in a small town. Ergo, in the Berndt house, we were playing sports.

When I was a sophomore in high school, I distinctly remember running in track with the other throwers (we were the not-so-skinny, not-so-fast group) when I said something along the lines of “These aren’t even my shorts!” I don’t remember why I felt the need to share this, but I do remember that my mom had put one of my dad’s pair of shorts in my laundry pile, and I packed them one day without even thinking about it. Since then, they’ve become my shorts.

Over the years, these shorts have become my favorite pair. They have paint on them because they’ve been painting shorts, they’ve been pajama shorts, workout shorts…basically they’ve been everything. I’ve had them forever, so it’s easy to forget that the reason I kept them was because some of my other shorts didn’t fit me anymore.

It’s been an easy thing to ignore, continually gaining more weight until those shorts naturally fit. I just accepted gaining enough weight that made me go up two-three pants sizes, and I had the shorts, so I didn’t need new ones.

Last week, I practiced running the race route for the Race Against Breast Cancer, 5K #2 on the year. All my shorts were in the laundry, so I grabbed my trusty favorite pair and off I went.

What I found out through the whole run is that my favorite pair of shorts are obnoxiously too big for me now. I consistently had to pull them up as I ran, and I’m not gonna lie, I thought they were going to fall down half the time.

I’ve lost 53 pounds. Saying that still seems surreal, and I still feel like the same person I’ve always been. The main way I’d been noticing the weight loss has been when I feel nauseous after eating foods that used to never bother me, today’s example being cake & popcorn.

But now I’m really starting to see it with my clothes, these shorts being a good example of that. I also wore pants to work last night that I’d bought after a 25-30 pound weight loss. Now even those pants are too big. I’m officially down two pants sizes…back to high school waist size…back to the sizes I thought I’d left behind for good.

I’m so unbelievably grateful for this transformation. This past weekend was race weekend. This picture (left hand) was taken of me over the weekend, and I honestly didn’t even know it was me when I was looking through them because it’s the first time in years I’ve looked at a picture of me and thought, “Wow, I’m skinny!” Another plus? I finished 5K #2 of the year in 30:08, a full two minutes plus faster than the race I ran in July.

I was dogsitting at my parents house this past weekend, and I left the shorts there. Dad, you can have them back…I don’t need them anymore 🙂



Life of the Times

Does this blog post title make sense? I don’t really know. Basically I’m just going to tell you about my life, but I didn’t know what to call it, so there we go.

Well. Life. It’s a completely crazy roller coaster ride of a life right now. Here’s some things that are going on, or getting ready to go on, or been going on:

  • A few months ago, I did a fitness challenge through work, and I’m getting ready to start my next one! It focuses on different types of exercise and going to many of the different classes that our partner gym offers. It’s an eight week challenge, so it’s going to push me out of my comfort zone a little bit, but I’m excited to try different types of exercise.
  • 5Ks! I was only going to run two more this year, but then I either went completely crazy or got super motivated, and I decided to schedule out five more. FIVE. Two in September, one in October, and two in November. Two of them are only one week apart. So, umm….we’ll see how that goes. I have decided that my last one in November will be trained out with Christmas music, so there’s that.
  • Weight loss! Those pounds keep coming off, and I’m pretty excited about it. I’m at 191, so I’ve lost 51 pounds! Crazy. It’s kind of a weird feeling to feel like a different person and the same person at the same time. Whenever I know how to explain & describe all my thoughts about weight loss, I’ll probably write about it.
  • Church small group! I signed up to be a facilitator of a new small group initiative called Rooted at my church. It adds one training and one group night to my plate each week for ten weeks, but I cannot tell you how much I’m looking forward to it. I know a couple members of my group, but the rest of them will be new people, and I am eager to continue my faith walk with them and grow my relationship with God.
  • I got a part-time job! I am now an event coordinator at The Brownstone, and it’s going really well. We have all types of events, and I love it so far. It keeps me busy! Nights and pretty much every weekend, I’m heading out there, but it’s a beautiful venue, I’m really encouraged by the team I work with, and it enables me to live out my passion even more!

So that’s my life. I’m not going to lie, there are not a lot of empty boxes on my calendar the next couple of months. But every day, I find myself looking forward to every single thing that fills those full boxes. I love both of my jobs. I love working out and finding new ways to push myself. I. LOVE. Running. I don’t mind eating healthy….most of the time (I really miss cookies sometimes!). So even though my boxes are full, I’m so blessed to wake up every morning looking forward to what fills my life.


Everything I’ve Eaten That I Shouldn’t Have in the Last Three Days

I decided to cheat this ENTIRE weekend because of a few reasons:

  1. I wanted to have a girl’s night with my mama!
  2. I had a 13 hour day on Saturday with my new part-time job and was exhausted when it was over.
  3. I’ve had a really good diet & exercise three weeks, and I just wanted to NOT worry about it.
  4. I’ve only had about eight rest days in two months, and my body needed some relaxation, but I didn’t feel like being starving for three days, so I ate.

Because of this, I ate a lot of food I shouldn’t have. This wasn’t one of these, “Eat healthy foods but maybe just a few more of them,” cheat weekend. It was one of those, “Eat foods you haven’t eaten & don’t eat because you miss them,” weekend.

So, to be fun, and transparent, and as a way to focus on something other than the three pounds that the scale has told me I’ve gained in a week……here’s a list of all the foods I shouldn’t have eaten, but did anyway:

  • Cheddar sour cream potato chips
  • Papa Murphy’s cheese bread
  • Papa Murphy’s 5 Meat Stuffed Pizza
  • Papa Murphy’s S’mores Pizza
  • Mini Golden Oreos
  • Sugar Cookie Dough
  • Gardetto’s snack mix
  • Banana Laffy Taffy
  • More mini cookies
  • A lot of mini Reeses Peanut Butter cups
  • Pulled pork
  • Cheesy potatoes
  • Way too much chips & salsa
  • Queso
  • Steak tacos
  • Popcorn
  • Mini Chips Ahoy

So yeah…it was a bit of a spiral. I can’t say much except for oops. Life happens.


New Goals!

My weigh-in last week was 200! I’ve officially reached my goal weight!

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Through the last six months, I’ve decided that this isn’t enough.  Counting calories and eating healthier has developed into a natural habit and lifestyle for me. I naturally gravitate toward water instead of Diet Dr Pepper or alcohol. I find myself preferring fresh fruits & veggies over cookies and chips. No, this isn’t 100% of the time…let’s be real, I can only go so long without Famous Amos Cookies. But overall, counting calories isn’t something I feel like I have to do, but rather something I choose to do.

Naturally, I wanted to ride out this motivation. I started to really look at what I wanted for my life in the long-term. And honestly? I found out that there’s no reason I can’t lose more weight. So I got started making new goals, but this time, I went about it thinking, “What naturally healthier choices can I start making?” instead of “How fast can I get down to my goal weight?”

Here’s what I came up with – new goals!

  • Goal weight is 150 pounds. No time limit. If it takes six months, great! If it takes a year, great! At that point, I will work to maintain this weight.
  • Run a minimum of 6 5K races per year. Since there’s half a year left (I started this early July), the goal for 2017 is 3 5Ks (and I already have one down!).
  • Only eat El Mezcal one time per month. This is NEEDED, because my self-control when it comes to that place is nonexistent.
  • Track my exercise monthly through the rest of the year.
  • Be able to confidently wear a bikini when I go on my best friends trip in September 2018.
  • Keep going with no soda.

Those are six goals that I’m pretty much keeping myself to. No excuses, no cheats, just plain get them done. But since life is fluid, there are other things that I want to really focus on as secondary goals. These are things that I’d like to limit, see myself able to do, but I’m not going to feel guilty or really focus on them as main goals.

  • Limit the following foods: sweets (pastries, cookies, cakes, etc), chips / veggie stix, grains (rice, bread, pasta, cereals). I’d like to limit my sweets & chips / veggie stix to one day a week, while still remaining in my calorie count. For grains, the idea is just to limit them – I don’t really know how yet. Haha.
  • Be able to run a non-competitive 10K. I have no desire to run 6.2 miles for time or pay money to do so…but it’d be great to be able to wake up and know I could run 6 miles if I felt like it.

While deciding all of these primary and secondary goals, I needed a new “fitspiration” board! I’d had the same one for six months, so it was time to make a new one. Enter pinterest, new pens, & construction paper, and VOILA!!!!

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I. LOVE. IT. It’s got rainbows, rewards, ways to keep myself accountable, motivational pictures & quotes…I just love it! It keeps me energized and it starts me on this new journey. Yes, there’s a curse word too. IT HELPS.

I kept the exercise calendar, weigh ins, added a couple things for my goals, and I added a thermometer! Clearly I have a long way to go, BUT I get prizes as I go! 10 pounds, I get a pedicure. 20 pounds, new movies. 30 pounds, new Vera Bradley. 40 pounds, the Harry Potter 20th Anniversary set! And 50 pounds means a NEW WARDROBE!

I also did something fun and bought myself surprise presents! I gave five of my friends / family $15.00, and with that money, they buy me a present! Every ten pounds, I also get to open one of those. Just a few new ways to keep me motivated to keep going.

I can’t wait to continue on my journey. Two weeks in, and healthy feels pretty good 🙂